Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Saya kena belajar menerima kenyataan. Tapi saya tahu ia sukar. Saya rasa macam tak boleh langsung nak buat.
Tolong buat aku benci dia.
Aku benci dia
Aku benci dia
Aku benci dia
Tolong ajar saya bagaimana.
Posted at 05:18 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
Demmmmmmm!!!
Benci la
Posted at 02:28 am by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Monday, May 25, 2009
Tipu la kalau gua kata gua tak menyesal beb. Bape tahun da gua dengan dia. Tapi nak buat macam mane. Gua ada identity crisis yang maha hebat. Gua ingat gua bole terima dan telan bulat-bulat. Tapi tak bole. Makan dalam beb.
Takpelah. Kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana. Wtf. Gua benci ayat tu. Itu ayat orang lepas tangan. Orang tanak terima tanggungjawab. Gua lagi suka kalau lu kata macam tu dan pada masa yang sama lu tak de pape hubungan dgn psgn lu. Korang masing2 taw dlm hati la. Takde la korg rasa jeles memanjang. Trust la beb. Bila da rasa ready nak tanggung anak dara org, lu masuk la meminang. Haih. Lantak la. Gua malas nak pk. Gua nak lari p Australia dan bermastautin kat sana lepas gua grad nanti k?
Posted at 08:10 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
Hati,
Janganlah sedih ya?
Kita kan kena bangkit dari kekecewaan.
Kau sudah janji, kan?
Kita akan mulakan hidup baru.
Janji?
Kita perlu tabah walau apa pun yang terjadi.
Jangan mudah percaya dengan orang lain.
Harus percaya pada diri sendiri sahaja.
Okay?
Senyum..
:)
.Tabah.
Posted at 11:33 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Dear Diary,It's not the end of the world. My fate is of that what has been written in Loh Mahfuz. Am not going to change it nor make my life miserable. It's just a sin to do that.
Life must go on, ain't it? Though we sufferred from the painless wound.
Despite all what he did to me, I still give him my full respect. For given me the sweet memories. The imperfectness doesn't give me problem though. We complement each other by that.
Hail to the new life!
.Cheers.
Posted at 12:57 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Dear Diary,I cut my hair today. It has been 5 years. More or less since I last cut my hair. I told myself that I want it to be long so that my other half can feel the softness of it. Then again, after I met him, I want it to be him to be my other half.
But, it doesn't seem that way. So, I cut my hair. As a symbol that I should have let it go. And move forward. After all, I am not good enough for him that he wishes for my death.
Perhaps I should die.
.Breaking Dust.
Posted at 03:16 am by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Dear diary,
I don't know what to explain anymore. It's totally my fault. I admit.
Jadi sangat peramah memang menyusahkan, kan?
Maybe for that, it's a price that I have to pay for my own fault. It was my bad. I deserve to be treated like that.
Maybe it should be that way. Sebab saya tak boleh jadi yang terbaik.
Even how hard I tried, satisfactory can never be achieved. I can never satisfied him. It's my fault. I know. Whether or not I should put my interest behind me, is another story. But the fact is, if he's special, he has to be the number one.
The damage is done. I can do nothing but live well. Even how deep I feel, if he does not feel it, it's useless. It takes two to tango. I can't do it alone.
It's a goodbye then.
.live well.
Posted at 03:12 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Friday, March 06, 2009
ya Allah,
tlg.. aku down sgt..
:(
Posted at 08:56 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Dear diary,
Saya tahu saya bukan budak baik. Not yesterday. Not now. Tapi bila dia cakap macam tu rasa teruknya diri. Sabda Nabi, kalau nak cari isteri, pilihlah dia kerana yang pertama, agamanya. yang kedua, rupanya. yang ketiga hartanya. Kalau dapat yang pertama, insyaAllah akan dapat semuanya.
Tapi saya sudah gagal yang pertama.
Atau mungkin selama ini kamu sangka kamu telah pilih permata. Rupanya kaca semata.. Jangan risau.. masih belum terlambat.
Kamu perlukan seorang ibu untuk mendidik anak-anak kamu. Bukan seorang samseng yang seumur hidupnya hanya untuk dirinya dan kepentingan dirinya. Kamu perlu seorang isteri yang taat dan patuh. Bukan seorang perempuan yang kasar dan buruk perangainya. Kamu juga perlu seorang teman hidup supaya disaat akhir nanti hanya bersamanya kamu boleh berbual mesra. Bukan dengan seorang perempuan yang pentingkan diri sendiri. Saya hanya perlukan diri saya.
Saya hanya seorang perempuan yang pentingkan diri sendiri. Seperti kata kamu. Ia memang betul.
.Selamat Tinggal.
Posted at 06:44 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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Sunday, February 08, 2009
Dear diary,
kenapa perlu ada hari istimewa kalau hari itu lebih teruk dari hari-hari yang lain?
.mati.
Posted at 07:32 pm by MiyUKibiNafshA
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